Once in a lifetime part 33

e went inside,

he slept except me ..

i know what im doing is wrong ou 7ram , but i couldnt help it , i love him

i was thinking what should i tell dad, maybe tomorrow when we return ...

after i go to bed i recieved a dm from

from? wahab!!!!!!!

me: shnu?

wahab: 3balch ma shftkum entaw welzeft?

me: ok shswi y3ne

wahab: entay mta nawya tyozen?

me: lmn enta ta3gel ou t9eer rayal

wahab: ana rayal ou gh9bn 3laich

me: ee 9ra7a wa'97 enek rayal

wahab: ee, btshofen lulu ! ana saket

me: ee khair enshallah

i ignored him and went to bed ...


fay: lulu goumay yalaaa malna khlg nan6rch yala yalaaa

me: ufff mnu ga3d?

fay: elkel

me: enzain

we all changed and ate breakfast

after then we went to the train station

eb akher train kan full ou dad khalani ana ou aziz ou dana

after 1 hour we arrived to disney finally

me: ambaih khl nan6rhum!

aziz: khl nougaf 3end elbab ou nan6er

me: ee yala

b3d 15 minutes w9law

we went to parc disneyland

we plaayyeddd maybe everyyythinggg!!!

we had aloot of fun

bs it was very cold ou eljaw ma ysa3d fa we lazm nrid elsa3a 7 ...

bs shnuuu swa mr wahaab? kharaab 3laay wnaastyy :D

me: la jad enta shfeh omeekk bs tabe tt'hawsh??

fay: lulu hadayy

wahab: shayfaa swaalfch ou f3aaylch elzbala nafschh !

me: zbala shaklekk

dad: BAAS SKTAW SHFEEKUM

wahab: agoul lulu agoull??

me: ....

wahab: AGOOULL?

dad: shtgoull !

wahab: la khla9 mako shey

Uncle: elsa3a 6 yala yala emshaw mu wagtkum entaw b3d tfahmaw belbait!!

We went to the train station to go home.

I was sitting next to aziz and dana

I dropped a tear on his hand

Aziz: shfech?

Me: shnu mafeni?

Aziz: smela 3laich mafech shey! Malch shghel feeh

Me: ana khayfa!

Aziz: la tkhafen enshala ma ra7 ysawi shey

Me: enshala

Aziz: bs shnu yabe ygoul?

Me: ....

Aziz: lulu?

Me: ....

Aziz: laikon? Ams?

Me: eh.

Aziz: shdrah?

Me: shafna.

Aziz: aah!!

After 1 hour we arrived to our hotel

Me: ana bnam

Dad: tawha 7:15 bnswi 3sha b3den namay

Me: ok.

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Me: wahab enta shfeek? Shtabi feni? Bs 3shan t2theni? Wallaa enta wla mra 9rt zein wyay wla shey!!!

Wahab: kaifi ana abeich!

Me: ana mabeek! Maby wa7d y2theni ou yma9kher 3eshty!!

Wahab: ....

Me: enta tertha a7d ysawe feek chthy?

Wahab: etha ma tbeni atzwjch bgoul

Me: shtgoul?

Wahab: shswetay wya aziz

Me: WAHAB!!

Wahab: ghaira mako !

Me: oufff !!! Khla9 la tgoul

Wahab: 3afya

Me: ....

At 9:30 we all went to sleep


3 days passed everything was okay, i werent so close with aziz, just a normal days we go shopping etc ...

Wahab: 3amy aziz meta berou7?

Dad: tw elnas laish?

Wahab: bgoulk shey!

Dad: goul !

Wahab gal EVERY SINGLE THING TO MY DAD ABOUT ME AND AZIZ

dad: enta mn 9jek wla shnu bthab6?

Wahab: wala mn 9je! Ana shayfhum

Dad was angry, very angry

Dad: nad lulu!

Wahab: enshallah

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Wahab: lulu obouch ybech

Me: enshallah

....

Me: hala yba?

He slapped me on the face till i got down on the floor

Me: SHSWAITTT!!!

Dad: la ttklmain!

Me: shnuu ybaa shnuu!!

Dad: chub wla kelma!! Ma buga shey ma sweteeh wya 3ziz!!

Me: ....

Dad: elyoum ehwa ra7 yrou7 , ashoufech tkalmena aw shey! Aw tgoulela ena wahab galy aw ana drait

Me: ybba a7bbaa wallaaa !!!

Dad: 7btch elgradaa enshalaaa!!

Me: ybaa 7ram 3laaik t9adeg wahab ou ana gbel chm yoom agoulek el9j ou ma t9dg!!!

Dad: eklay khraach! Wahab ou ana a3rfaa

Me: wanaa shnuu?

Dad: entay ou zbalaa wa7d !! Yala thlfay 3n wayhe maby ashoufch

Me: enshallah..

I ran to my room and bursted into tears

Fay: SHFEEEEECHH???

I couldnt talk or breathe, or anything ... I just need aziz

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Dad: yala yba aziz emsh khl nrou7

Aziz: elbnat mara7 eyoun?

Dad: LAA!

Aziz: ah ok.

They went to the airport...

Their side

Dad told aziz everythingg ou kel ele gala ly ena ma ashoufa wla akalma wla shey

Aziz: bs 3amy ana a7b bntek!

Dad: enta ma tfham benty ra7 tnkh6b?

Aziz: ee 3amy bs !

Dad: ou ybas! Saw ele gelta ou bs yala rou7 to9al bel slama ..

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I told dana and fay everything ...

Dana: ambaih! Entay mn 9jch??

Fay: laa laa wahab mu 9a7y!

Me: al7en gh9bn 3lay atzwaj wahab.. Shal 3eesha!! Abe ommyy

Dana: allah yr7mhaa, b3d shtswen! Alah y3eench

Me: 7adaa

Fay: ana sma3t obouch dana ygoul ena lmn nrid london ra7 njahez aghrathna ou nrid kuwait b3d 2 days

Dana: kelna?

Fay: wala madri

Me: ee aked kelna !

Dana: elsa3a 9:30 ma tben tnamen?

Me: embala b3d shwy

Dad: LUULUU

me: hala?

Dad: yebay tlphonch ou kel ajhztch!

Me: yba ana mu 9ghera!!

Dad: n3amm?? Tbeen 6rag thany?

Me: enshala.

I gave him my things,

Dad: jahzaw kel aghrathkum lana 3gb bacher bnrid london mlaina hne ou b3d 2 days bnrou7 elkuwait kelna

Me: laish?

Dad: entay shfeeechh?

Me: wla shey ..

We all packed our things ..




3 days later...

In london ..

Dad: yala yala khl9aw bnrou7 elma6aarr

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We went to the airport and did our passport thingy etc ....


And we went to our plane, i miss gust and all my family ! Home too .. Kuwait more !

After along 6 hours we arrived to kuwait at 8:00am ..

Home.sweet.home.

I hugged my bed ...

Dad: bacher ra7 trou7en eljam3a

Me: twni rada!

Dad: wala rou7ay golay lhum twch rada!

Me: ....

Dad: el'6her bnrou7 3nd mama ruqaya

Me: maly khlg

Dad: mu 3la kaifch!!

Me: ok.

I need aziz!! I neeeeeeeeeeeed him

Dad went to his room to sleep, i got my car keys and went to the super market

I bought redbull, cigarettes

After i arrived home i was smoking, i had nothing to do! I remembered i have my laptop

I opened it and checked aziz's profile

Whatt?? He deactivated !!! Impossible ... Today its his operation ! I neeeddd himmm

Im just drinking redbull and smoking ..

Till i finished 1 packet!

I went to the super market again

Guess who i saw?

ATTENTION

you all know that im going to start exams on 26-11 !

and as you know, high school? needs alot of studying

so i wont be posting like before

maybe i can tomorrow and after tomorrow,

on weekend? NO

i really cant i have to study ...

i hope you guys understand

ou maybe maybbbee mu akeed, etha kan 3ndi emt7an shwy sahal i'll post maybe

wish me luck , and goodluck y'all <3

Once in a lifetime part 32

he pulled me and kissed me ,

what kiss? a french one. the disgusting one ... LOL::

me: i wish you can sleep with us!!!!!!

aziz: me too,

me: yala emsh khl nrou7

aziz: yala

finally we reached them sitting in a very beautiful green garden

dad: yala emshaw nrou7 ou blail nrid

me: laish baba twna yayen khl nstanas shwy

dad: ee yala okay shwy bs

fay: dam chthy 3yal dano ou lulu t3alaw n9awer

we took some funny and crazy pictures together ! memories<3 it was fun !

after 30 minutes we arrived home.

dad: lulu yba ana ou khalch benam elsa3a 7:30 gwmouna ou etha ma 3laikum amer rou7aw eljm3ya greba 3laina eshtraw akel ou sawaw b3dain

me: enshallah men 3youni

dad: tslmeen wala

dad. uncle and wahab slept except me dana fay and aziz so aziz came and sat with us

we decided to go to the supermarket to buy some food

after supermarket we arrived to our hotel ..

we made dinner

me: sooo

fay: ana barou7 amshi bara , a7d byeey?

me: wayed bard maby aye

dana: wla ana

aziz: wla ana

fay: malat 3laikum tnabel , khl arou7 wayed a7san

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dana: weee khl arou7 ajabel elakel

me: ee la tnsena 7adi yo3ana

dana: enshala mdam

aziz: t3alay elbalcony

me: laish?

aziz: bs chthy eljaw 7lw barid

me: umm ok

aziz: obouch ygoul bnrou7 disney bacher

me: wnasa bs wai3 maby agoum mbacher

aziz: ee 6b3an , a9lan ellsa3a 8 3ndi wayed mt2kher ! entay fal7a tgoumen 10-11

me: enzain chub

dana screamed: LUUULUUUU LEE7GGAAAAYY

me: HAA SHFEECHH !!!

dana: ambaih ma3arf shlon aswy alfredo sauce!!

me: malat 3laich 3baly 3ndch salfa, WANA SHDRANI !

dana: 3yal mnu yadri yadtee?

me: ee waala khl ns2al mama ruqaya ! shdraaaniii s2lay chef aziz

dana: shfeek ma t7cha ent?

aziz: chub, jablay elpizza khl aswy elpasta ana

dana: ee yala

me: ana brou7 ag3idhum

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i woke dad and uncle ..

me: wahab!
wahab goum

wahab: shtben?

me: 3asha !

wahab: ee rou7ay g3ay 7beebch awl

me: e7trem nafsek shwy!!

wahab: entay ele e7trmay nafsch yal zbala

me: ambaih 9ij qaleel adab! zbala shaklek

wahab: btshofen lulu, walla!

me: ee khair enshallah madri shnu bshouf

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dad: lulu laish ma t3lmaiin tsween pastaa pizza ay sheeyy ! b3dden wrach 3yal ou rayel

me: tw elnas ou ma7b a6bakh, shnu faydat elkhdam

dad: faydat'hum? ma mnhum faidaa bs n9aben ou yboun flous

me: yba y9eer khair, khl a6bakh 7g nafsy 3shan a6bakh 7g a7d thani

dad: allah yahdech bs

me: ajm3en enshallah

dad: ha khl9taw akel 3shan nrou7

all: EEEE

after dinner we went to the eiffel tower

fay: AMBAIH AMBAAIH BAMOOUUT

all: SHFEECHH??

fay: ambaih , eltower, eyaaaneeeeeeeeeeeenn

dana: malat 3laich 3balna 3ndch salfa bs

fay: .... -.-

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dad: ma mleetaw?

me: embala mlaaina ou naby crepe

dana: ween ako?

uncle: eeee fe crepe ou waffels hnak yala yala emshaw

wahab: ee 7g elmten zahben

all: KAIFNA

wahab: rou7aw rou7aw bil3afya

after everything we finally went to the hotel

dad: yala elsa3a 10 rou7aw namaw wrana g3da

all: enshalla

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twitter DM

aziz: daykha?

me: umm no , you?

aziz: la! awl mra ag3d lai 12:00

me: chicken

aziz: t3alay el9ala

me: ok

i went to the living room and saw aziz

aziz: y7lailhum 3nndhum mbc 1

me: ma3ndhum english channels 3ndhum mbc 1 ! wow

aziz: laish m3aqba nafsch? g3day!

me: we, ah ok

i sat next to him ou he putted his arm around me.

aziz: bgoulch shey

me: goul

aziz: abech.

me: y3ni ana shswi, gelt kel shey ou oboy leel7in yabeni akhth elzag wahab

aziz: oufff ee klmeeh brou7ah ymkn ysm3ch ou y9dg

me: madri ashouf.

aziz: yala 3shany

me: enshallaa

he held my chin till his nose touched my nose

me: tkhyal al7en oboy eyeey

aziz: tkhylay!

me: aswy nafsy mayta

aziz: smela 3laich zaga

me: im jokinngg

aziz: 7tan law

me: way asfa

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me: its 2, ma dekht?

aziz: la shlon annam ou ana wyach !

me: enzain emsh elbalcony

aziz: y3ni ana ele ast7y

me: chub chub

we went to the balcony, i wasnt comfortable when we were inside.

so i held his face and kissed him

aziz: 3shan chthy tbeen trou7en elbalcony?

me: um well yeah, kinda

aziz: me too bs gelt ymkn ma tbeen

me: oh, soo

aziz: eee t3alaayyyy

he pulled me and starte making out till he got crazy

me: ambaih ambaih 3ziz hady shwyy

aziz: walla a7bch !

me: wala ana b3d bs shfeek ynaaiit

aziz: wala law kntay murtyy ..

me: ok chub

aziz: ast7y ast7y 

me: esket ya mleeq

aziz: enzain

i heard someone was calling me and aziz

i turned wela its fay

fay: shgam tswoun entaw

me: wla shey bs ma nemna ou gam nsoulf

fay: oh okay

me: ambaih 3ziz please khl nrou7 ou klmni dm

aziz: shfeech khayfa ya mama

me: please 3shany 3ziz

aziz: enshallah

we went inside,

he slept except me ..

i know what im doing is wrong ou 7ram , but i couldnt help it , i love him

i was thinking what should i tell dad, maybe tomorrow when we return ...

after i go to bed i recieved a dm from ...

HOLLY SHIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






 

A poem

a poem i wrote today at math class ... you know, boredom kills:::

See the strength that you have within.


the one that makes you believe in


how you look and who you are,


the feautures that makes you beautiful


and dont change a thing about yourself


no matter the words they say they bring


because you are beautiful


and nobody is perfect


 

Once in a lifetime part 31

At 10:00 aziz wanted to to

Outside,

Me: ra7 tye bacher wyana elma6ar?

Aziz: ee aked

Me: enshala, awl ma trid call

Aziz: enshalla tbeen shey?

Me: slamtek

He kissed me on the lips ..

wahab: ASHKARA CHTHYY???

me: shtaby ent? you're not my husband wla fince wla shey!

wahab: wla ohwa !!!!

me: ok ent al7een shtaby?

aziz: lulu bs

wahab: 7saby wyach b3dain ya 7mara

me: ee khair madry shnu btswi

aziz: yala ana raye7

me: bye,,

i ignored wahab and when to my room ..

i saw dana and fay and i was shocked

dana: shfeech?

fay: lulu? feech shey?

i bursted into tears, i couldnt talk or do anything

dana: khl nkhleha tnam la nzeed 3laiha

fay: yala okay ..

i fell asleep ...

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i woke up, it was 9:00

me: aziz? shfeek?

aziz: mafeni shey! bs tawni knt bg3dch

me: oh okay

aziz: goodmorning, are you okay?

me: yeah i think ..

aziz: yala t3alay breakfast

me: enshallah !

after breakfast i wanted to change

me: BAABAA!!!!!!!!!!

dad: hala shfeech !!

me: wain mlaabsyy??

dad: bl laundry! yala t3alay bl pj elma6ar

dana: yala el7yah 7elwa lulu

fay: luuulu khu eb london bara 3ady

me: ambaih fshla, ookk

we went to the airport

me: baba laish 3ndk my passport?

dad: lana ra7 tyeen wyana

me: ha?

fay: RAA77 NROOOOU7 KEELNNAAA PAAAARIISSSS SURPRIIIIIIIIIISE

me: HAAAA?

dana: ambai mu m9dga mskena ..

me: AMBAAAAAIHHH A7BBKUUUMM !!!!! GROUPP HUUGGG

nfashel:::::

so b3d ma khl9na the airport stuff ::: etc ... we went to our plane !

me, fay and dana together . wahab, aziz, uncle and dad together behind us ..

they all slept except me , uncle and aziz

me: khaly ma tbe tnam?

uncle: embala bnaam bs broou7 el7mam

me: ahaa okayy

after then my uncle slept

aziz: btnamen?

me: no, klsh mu daykha

aziz: hmm , 3yal t3alay el7mam

me: why?

aziz: bwreech shey !

me: shnu?

aziz: khu t3aalay wntay sakta la tkhafen mara7 athb7ch !

me: enzaain

allah yaster ...

we went to the bathroom

he held my face with his 2 hands and he started making out ....

me: azizz aziizz !!!

aziz: shfeechh?

me: akhaf a7d ygom ou ydawer 3laina

aziz: i'll come up with an excuse

me: ufff , fine

aziz: khu t3alay ma shba3t

s7abny mn my shirt ou started kissing ...

lain ma dakhal his hand eb my shirt

me: AZIIIZZ!!!!

aziz: sorry sorryy !

me: omg please khl n6la3 akhaf ydawroun 3laina

aziz: shfeech khayfa ! 7ta ymkn ma9art 5 minutes, ou el7mam ele e7na ray7enla b3eed 3nhum just trust me

me: okay... wala im scared !

aziz: dont be, im here !

me: enshallah ...

i hugged him soo tight ou he kissed my neck , its like a bite

we went to our seats ou kel wa7ed eb sabi3 nouma , 7mdallaah !!!!!!!

after 1 hour we finally reached paris ..

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after 1 hour n half we arrived to our hotel

me: shkthr ra7 ng3ad?

dad: kelna 10 days ma 3da 3ziz 6

me: ohh

we unpacked our things and went to chan se lise to have lunch there

dad: tdroun Eiffel tower yamna tqreban?

me: PLLEASEEE KHL NROOOU7

dad: yala emshaw

after 15 minutes we went to the Eiffel tower and went inside ...

aziz: 3ady nrid hne blail? fe lights and stuff

dad: ee yala dam ma3ndna she

aziz: enhshala, ana al7en brou7 chan se lise abe m7al

uncle: ma taby wahab eyeey wyak?

aziz: la mashkour,ana b3den adeg 3laikum ou ashouf wenkum

dad: aku 7deqa yamna bnrou7 laha

aziz: ee enshallah okay

me: may9er arou7 wyah? abe ashtry shey 7g rayan ou rawan

dad: yala rou7aw

wahab: ana b3d abe arou7 !

uncle: la enta mako, ana abeek t3lmni hal iphone tawni makhtha

wahab: uff , enzain

me&aziz's pov

we went to chan se lise ou 6oul elmuda we we're helding hands ...

i bought some toys for rayan and rawan i miss theemm

aziz: mnu rayan ou rawan?

me: 3yal okhouy

aziz: wow! tawni adry ench 3amma

me: heheee

aziz: cuute , twins?

me: ee shdrak

aziz: men asamehum

me: ohh

aziz: we are alone

me: eeh?

aziz: i said we are alone

me: ee adri !

aziz: uhoo

he pulled me and kissed me ,

what kiss? a french one. the disgusting one ... LOL::

me: i wish you can sleep with us!!!!!!

aziz: me too,

me: yala emsh khl nrou7

aziz: yala

finally we reached them sitting in a very beautiful green garden

mako cliffhanger 3shankum:p

The real inner beauty

you know why shrek is the best fairytale? cause in some fairytales, the prince and the princess are perfect . but in shrek it teaches us that imperfect people can still have their own happy endings


The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched.
They must be felt with the heart.
People are like stained-glass windows.
They sparkle and shine when the sun is out,
but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed
only if there is a light from within.


don’t understand why some pretty girls go to such great lengths just to look pretty your already pretty why put on so much make up! what are you covering up i see so many gorgeous women that look like dolls if thats the look your going for then fine. the more make up you put on the uglier you look when you take it off”
your inner beauty never needs makeup


A beautiful person isn't beautiful because of their physical appearance. You could be the best looking person in the world, but if your heart is ugly, then you're just as ugly.
Beautiful people are the people out there who are kind, generous and loving. They have beautiful hearts


I’ve never thought anyone to be ugly until I’ve learned about their true personality and seen the color of their heart
Everyone is beautiful to someone, even if it’s only one person, that one person can see your inner beauty and loves you for who you are.

Fuck society

So you want to kill yourself? Because no one cares about you. Your family hates you. Right? No. Your parents walking in your room in the morning to only find a dead body. They’ll try their hardest to not think negative, and to just think that you’re fooling around. Then they’ll start shaking you. Why aren’t you breathing? They’ll be broken. Tears. Many tears. More tears than you ever shed. Was it them? Were they the reason you did this? More tears. Pain. Every day. Every night. Every single second of every day. Guilt. More guilt. What about your bestfriends? They’re not going to care. Right? No. What’s the first thing that will go through their mind when your principal comes in and tells the class that you’re not alive. While your bestfriend sits there in tears. That girl that you’d smile at but never talk to? She’s now crying. The boy who used to kick you under the table just to annoy you? He’ll be shocked. He’ll be devastated. He’ll blame himself. What about your teacher? Thoughts crossing her mind. She’ll question if you did it because she didn’t make school comfortable enough for you. Pain. Devastation. All in one. Who organises your funeral? Who has to go through your stuff? Clothes? Notes? Those few older girls who used to give you daggers at school? They’ll feel regret. They’ll blame themselves. See, if you killed yourself today, you’ll never know what might of happened tomorrow. You’ll never know because you’re dead. Plain dead. Not breathing. Not alive. Just dead. Your family hates themselves for it. Your bestfriend then falls into depression. Tears. Tears. More tears than a river. All because you killed yourself because you thought no one would care. Right? You are loved. By many. Someone right now is thinking of you. And right now, I’m thinking about anyone who has thought or is considering suicide. You are beautiful. No matter if you’re black, white, homo-sexual, tall, short, overweight or anorexic. You are beautiful. You want to kill yourself? Think about it first. There’s no coming back. And I promise, if you do it, you are not only hurting yourself, you are hurting many. You are creating more tears than you led yourself to. You are making everyone miserable and making them all feel guilt and pain. Never will they feel whole like they used to when they had you. You are beautiful. And you are never ever alone.


before 3 weeks maybe, i have a friend , a classmate actually who had  friend called maryam ! and what? maryam killed herself because of society !

RIP maryam ! ...